Create the life that you know you deserve.

Firstly I’d like to thank you and congratulate you for taking the huge step forward and choosing to vastly change and improve your life.

I believe that you’re reading this right now because somewhere deep down in your soul you’ve always known that you deserve so much more from your life. You know that life isn’t supposed to be difficult. It isn’t supposed to be an epic struggle to move from one pay cheque to the next, and that you should still have at least a few pounds or dollars left in your bank account at the end of the month, instead of worrying about how your going to make ends meet before your next pay drops into your account.

Or, that meeting someone you can connect with, where there’s a mutual attraction shouldn’t be that difficult, or maybe that when you’re in a relationship, love shouldn’t be a mine field of arguments and mistrust. Love is or should be just that right? Love! Caring for each other for mutual benefit.

You might be asking yourself why it is that when you look around, other people seem to be strolling through life without any major disasters. Everything seems to be so much easier for them. Okay, nobody’s life is perfect. You realise that, but why is it that you just can’t seem to get a break?

You’re a good person right? You get up in the mornings and you go to work, you pay your bills, you do everything that you’re supposed to do, but no matter how hard you try, you just can’t seem to get ahead, or break free from that constant daily grind.

So you’ve now reached that point where you’re so fed up of waiting for things to change.

But you just don’t know what you can do to make your life as easy as you know it should be, or for you to live the life that you know you were born to live.

Well, today you’ve come to the right place! You’ve turned that corner.

Take a second right now to sit back and shake off some of that stress you’ve been feeling. Go on, get in a comfortable position. Now rest your head back, breath in deeply and breath it all out. Take another few slow, deep breaths, and exhale completely until you feel more relaxed.

I’m going to share with you some knowledge on why life has become a struggle, and how you can tap into the energy that will bring you everything you’ve always dreamt of.

Believe it. All you’ve ever dreamed of is out there waiting for you.

Wealth, true love, inner happiness, the means, and the ability to travel to all those exotic destinations that you’ve always wanted to visit. It’s all available to you and always has been. You just need to believe in yourself more. Think about that phrase as you continue reading “Believe IN yourself”

Life has taught you to believe from an early age that you aren’t worthy! Well it isn’t true. You ARE worthy!

Can you imagine never having to worry about money, being able to eat in nice restaurants without having to think about the cost, driving that car you’ve had your eye on but never thought it could be yours, having a personal trainer to get you to that fitness level you know you should have?

Whatever it is in life that you believe should be yours. You can now make it a reality. Your reality.

In fact, anything that you desire in life can be yours, and easily, with just a little bit of inner work on your part. I’m not saying that you’ll wake up tomorrow and your whole life will be different. It will take a bit of time, but you should start seeing changes in a short time. Sometimes almost instantly. It’s all to do with how you view yourself, and what is outside of yourself.

All that’s required is the understanding that you were put on this earth to be abundant. That you are a powerful energy and the Universe is there to serve you. This is a fact that no one can deny. Our ancestors knew it, the Bible states it, but we’ve lost the art in this modern world.

If we can make this happen I hear you ask, then why don’t I have it already?

Well, lets start at the beginning of your life here on Earth to see how things work.

Our subconscious program

On the day you were born, you came screaming into this world, a tiny, cute bundle of energy. Your parents loved you immensely I’m sure, and through those first months you cried, you were fed, and you were pampered and adored. Everything that you needed, you received. So, no complaints there.

You began to grow, and of course to learn. To walk, to talk, to socialise. You learned skills and everything that you needed to survive from those closest to you.

For you it may have been a happy childhood, or there may have been some sad experiences. You might look back and see that your parents did everything that they could for you, or you may have had a difficult upbringing. We all have our own unique story.

The one big thing that we all have in common, is the fact that we were all born with a subconscious mind.

The subconscious mind is extremely powerful, and this has been your setback.

The subconscious mind is working in the background every minute of every day, while you’re awake and also while you’re asleep. This has been true since your birth.

As a baby, you didn’t yet have conscious thoughts, your conscious mind was empty, a clean slate so to speak. Your subconscious however, soaked in everything that was happening around you. For those first months and for the first seven years, you absorbed everything that you heard, saw, smelled, touched and felt, and this is how your belief system developed. Everything, and I mean everything that you encountered in those first seven years of your life, created the program that you live by today.

Perhaps there were times when your parents struggled for cash. Were you perhaps aware of them arguing, or worrying about bills that needed to be paid. Were there ever times when there was a decision to be made about whether to pay this bill or that? Was money ever a worry in your household?

Was there a time in your young life when you felt that no one listened to you, perhaps you felt uncared for, that no one was noticing you, or considering your feelings? Were you ever bullied in school? Did your brother or sister make fun of you? Everything that you encountered in those early years formed your belief system about who you are, your self worth, and this determines how you go through your life as an adult.

Feeling unworthy, a fear of failure, lack of trust, a disdain for wealth. All setbacks in adult life that were absorbed during early childhood.

This world has an infinite amount of abundance, and all we need to do is believe in our hearts that we can reach out and take it.

So many of us go through life believing that we’re only worth a certain amount. That we don’t deserve love and happiness, that we can only earn a certain amount of money, and that we must work hard to earn a living.

It may even be that you have a deep rooted belief that money is the root of all evil. That rich people are selfish, only thinking of themselves. These thoughts can be absorbed without realising the impact. If these thoughts were picked up by you as a young child, then this could be holding you back today.

It may be that you’re shaking your head as you read this, saying no, that’s not how I think. But, somewhere in your subconscious these beliefs have been formed at a young age. It may only have taken one instance. One encounter that planted the seed.

As an example, ask yourself this…Why do you eat the foods that you eat on a daily basis? Do you 100% like all of them? Is it truly your choice that you have the eating habits that you have?

Listen to your body. Your inner voice will tell you what your body wants and needs. I’m not saying eat only healthy foods, although obviously that would be a great way to go, but I’m just asking that you pay more attention to your inner voice. Slowly, day by day you’ll begin to take more control of what you feed to your body and mind. This is the first step to mindfulness. Of paying closer attention to your thoughts and behaviours.

I stopped eating red meat when I focused on this thought. I realised that I’d never really enjoyed eating meat. It had just become a habit throughout my life since childhood. It was just the way it was. Each meal brought meat and two veg’ and it was never questioned. I’ve never looked back since giving it up. It’s been around 12 years now and I can honestly say that it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

Of course this is just my personal preference, but what in your life are you still doing routinely that has been a habit from childhood? And, does it serve you well? Take time to question yourself over this. You may be surprised by what comes up.

Try to go through your day being more self aware. Pay more attention to your behaviours and see how you could possibly cut out habits that are more detrimental than beneficial to you.

Do you have negative thoughts about the people in your life? At work, at home, your friendships?

This is also a bad habit developed over time. Try to look at people in a different light. Each of us has our own story, as we journey through life, and there are reasons why we are the way we are. Try to imagine what life is like for that person. The daily struggles that they might have, and remember that they too have developed life long habits that may not be serving them. Being more aware of your views of others will help you understand more about how your subconscious mind is controlling you. Take back control! Be more self aware.

This is the good news though, the fact is that you can change these habits that no longer serve you. Just as you can reprogram your subconscious and begin living the life you were put on this earth to live. A life full of happiness and abundance, and you can start making these changes today!

Whether you choose to believe it or not, we humans are an energy force. Everything that exists in the Universe is made from the same energy, and this energy flows through and around us all of the time. We are part of it and are connected with it. This energy force is infinite. The abundance it supplies is infinite. The happiness and love it supplies to us is infinite.

But the majority of us just aren’t aware of this. We’ve been programmed to focus our energy on things that don’t serve us.

Hard work.

Lack.

Negative moods.

Feeling unworthy.

Feeling undeserving.

Acceptance.

We should never give in to acceptance!

Acceptance becomes a part of daily life. So much so that we haven’t even noticed it’s existence in our lives. Everyone around us does the same things. We all get up, go to work, that we mostly don’t enjoy. A job that takes from us more than it gives, that steals our energy and allows us limited free time. A job that for most of us, barely covers our bills. That exhausts us mentally, emotionally or physically, so that by the time we go home to our family, we often have to fake the smile we put on our face to greet them. Is this the life we were born for? Does this breed happiness and contentment?

Most definitely not!

But when were we taught acceptance?

Well let’s think back to our school days. How were the rebels or the outsiders thought of and treated in school? Were they cheered and honoured for their individuality? Was their uniqueness encouraged?

Was individuality or uniqueness in any way seen as a positive thing?

No, acceptance was learned early.

Being part of the herd was the easier way to survive, and was actively encouraged. If you weren’t part of the herd, you were an outsider, and most kids struggle with that.

Individuality and being unique is what makes each of us who we are! Be unique, be weird, be yourself. Be happy!

So let’s now look at our lifestyle today.

The pros and cons of modern technology

You only have to switch on the TV and within a very short space of time you’ll witness so much negativity and drama. Everywhere you look there it is, negativity and drama.

I personally turned my back on TV years ago. I watch some shows and movies online from time to time, but mainstream TV? Not for me. I never watch the news, and you know what? I’m still alive! It hasn’t affected my life in any way, other than making me happier and more at peace with myself.

The technology that we spend so much of our money on, and so much of our time on keeps us vibrating at a low frequency. We’re all energy, and we do vibrate.

So, it’s a simple law…..

When you’re happy, you’re vibrating at a higher frequency and will attract more of that vibration to you.

When you’re in a negative frame of mind, you vibrate at a lower frequency, and the same applies, you’ll attract more of that energy to you.

So what frame of mind should you practice being in more?

On the other hand, there’s no doubt that modern technology really is a wonderful thing, it enables us to do so many cool things, like communicate with friends that we would otherwise have lost touch with, through Social media sites. To write blogs and share our thoughts with the world, as I’m doing right now. To make and receive payments through online banking. The list is endless. The point is that it’s a tool and it should be used in that way. So many of us have allowed the higher powers to use it as a tool that uses us!

Our android phones is a good example. When we were young, we watched movies about a time in the future when there would be robots in the world for us to have as a personal slave. Well, the time is here, but who is the slave? The android to us, or us to our android device?

There are far too many people today that can’t have a conversation without constantly checking their mobile phone. Too many children are lacking attention from their parents because they’re glued to a screen.

But, we can also learn anything about anything by simply typing a few words into Google and other search engines, and it’s right that we should make great use of this, but we’ve allowed ourselves to be duped into believing that the fancy, latest TV, the most up to date mobile phone, and the computers and laptops we use daily are serving us. Mostly, they’re not. How many of us write by hand these days? Our children could lose this art completely.

We’ve become slaves to our devices.

How much time each day do you spend staring at a screen?

Think of your friends and family. Don’t they do the same?

Time that could be spent playing with and enjoying our children, spending time out in the fresh air socialising with our friends in the flesh, doing sports. Enjoying life! is spent staring at a screen.

Is it mere coincidence that we’re all guilty of the same thing? Think of the benefits this brings to the higher powers. If we’re all in our box staring at a box, shaking in our boots because the stuff we’re staring at is reminding us constantly of how frightening and dangerous the world is. Wouldn’t we be so much easier to control? Wouldn’t our minds be so focused on negativity and self doubt that we’d be less likely to focus on and stand up to how they’re running things?

Now think about the news on TV. How often do we see or hear about good news stories? Not often enough I hear you say.

It’s all designed to keep us resonating at a lower frequency.

We all resonate at a certain vibration. The higher the vibration, the happier we are and the more positivity we attract into our life.

You’ve heard the age old sayings…Like attracts like. What you put in you get out. What goes around comes around, and so on. Where did these sayings come from? Were the ancients more wise than us?

Did they know the power of the subconscious? Why didn’t our granny tell us this stuff?? I remember well a saying that was said to me often when I was child. “There’s no such word as “can’t” I only wish I had questioned that more. I never understood it, and as a child I’m sure I just sulked, being made to do something I didn’t want to do. But now I know that really, it’s true. When we say we can’t, what we’re actually saying is that we won’t. We can do anything. We just need to want to enough.

There’s no word for can’t in the Spanish language, or for any negative. they simply put the word no in front of the word.

I can = puedo. I can’t = no puedo.

The fact is….

Our subconscious beliefs keep us resonating at a particular frequency and nothing will change in our life until we take control of that belief system and kick it’s butt! We need to actively and consciously change our basic program.

Be sociable. When buying some shopping. Getting outside in the fresh air, meeting your neighbours in the street, chatting with the guy who works in the local grocery store, catching up with the latest updates on how the couple who recently moved in along the road from you are getting on. This all helps raise your vibration, and is definitely far better than shopping online, alone.

Technology’s great when we’re using it to serve us. But when we allow it to isolate us and to cut us off from humanity, we have to then take steps to re-evaluate.

What we give out, we receive. If we give out negativity, or resonate at a low frequency. It’s the natural law of physics that this is what we will attract back to us. Something very important to imprint on your belief mind set.

So, on that note, let’s think for a minute about the days when for no apparent reason, everything goes well for us. Why is it that we can’t remain that way?

Those days when you feel great, where it seems you can’t put a foot wrong. Everything’s easy and things just seem to go right for you. Why is it that this doesn’t last? All too soon you’re back to normal. Struggling, feeling like everything’s hard work and there’s no explanation of why it changed?

It’s simple. Your subconscious program dragged you back into your reality. Your subconscious was like, Hey! This isn’t how things are! This isn’t in the program.

Your subconscious doesn’t like being out of it’s comfort zone and will soon change your vibrational frequency back to the normal rate. It will only allow you to live your life according to the inbuilt program.

So, reset your program!

You see it doesn’t need to remain that way for you. You can teach yourself to reprogram your subconscious mind, to reprogram the way your subconscious resonates, and I’m going to help you to start doing that right now.

I know you’ve probably heard it so often in the past, and I’m sorry but I’m going to repeat it….

Meditation

I know, I know, you’ve tried it and it doesn’t work for you. You just can’t do it, right? It’s boring. You’re too busy. You can’t relax. This is all part of your programming!

But, to help you, the thing that most people haven’t mentioned before is that we all have our unique way of meditating.

Meditating is basically just a way of quietening the mind. Of shutting out the multitude of thoughts that run through your head, just for a few minutes.

You could try it by sitting on the floor crossed legged saying OOMMMM over and over.

Or it could be you lying on your bed, staring at the ceiling and focusing your mind on an image of yourself as you lie on an airbed, floating in an aqua blue pool, with the sun beating down on you, and the sound of children giggling with laughter as they play in the sun in the background.

I like this image.

It could even be you staring at a rose in a vase on your table, and focusing on each petal in turn, each thorn and leaf, and taking note of each different colour or hue on each of the petals.

It doesn’t matter. Medidating is focusing your mind on one particular thought only, so make it one that you enjoy.

It’s all about what works for you. It’s about shutting off the multitude of thoughts that run through our mind every minute of every day.

It’s about finding one thing to focus on that will allow those thoughts to be silenced for a minute, or two minutes or even 30 minutes. As you practice it more, your ability to do it will strengthen.

When you close off the noise in your head, you’re meditating.

The reason meditation is important is because it trains us to take back control of our thoughts. To take back control of our mind! It teaches us to focus only on what is in front of us. Right here, right now. In this one moment, because really, this one moment is all that exists. The past has gone and the future doesn’t exist yet. There is only right here, right now.

Our subconscious mind runs wild. Throughout the day our thoughts are scattered and random. Really, we should be exhausted with the amount of thinking our minds do every hour of every day. Is it any wonder we get nowhere?

As an example, try to be aware of the short time you can stay focused on any one thing throughout your day without your mind wandering. During a conversation with a loved one or work colleague, how many times have you lost track of the conversation and not wanted to admit it? You’ve just nodded or shook your head at what you hoped was the right moment and then felt a bit guilty. Not knowing why your mind wandered off.

Even while reading this your mind will probably wander at some point, and you’ll find that you’ll need to re read a sentence over again.

How about driving in your car! You would think you should be really focused, right? But haven’t you suddenly come back to reality, realising that your mind had wandered and you were driving on autopilot? You went through all the motions of steering, changing gear, even turning corners or changing lanes and you weren’t even present!

This is the power of the subconscious mind. It kept us from danger and took us through the motions, but we weren’t present.

How much of our lives are we missing? How many opportunities are going un-noticed every day because our subconscious mind is in the driver’s seat! Making decisions for us based on these non self serving beliefs?

There are honestly countless possibilities that enable us to improve our situation, but we don’t even see them because it isn’t in our subconscious program to change things.

I tell you, the subconscious is more powerful than we’ve ever given it credit for.

This is exactly what we need to take more control over. We need to ensure that our conscious mind isn’t in control of our thoughts. To focus our thoughts on what we’re doing in this present moment, and to pay more attention to what is actually in front of us.

Meditation helps us to do this. To be more present, to be self aware and to live in the moment, which is where we should be at all times! When we focus all of our attention on this moment, we’re not worrying, or planning, or going over an earlier conversation, thinking about the shopping list, what to cook for dinner, what to watch on TV, or over analysing a situation.

We are here, in the now.

Life slows down and we can appreciate, focus and enjoy the task at hand. We feel more at ease, more able to complete tasks to a higher ability, and stress levels are reduced.

Meditation will help you succeed in this. It will strengthen your consciousness and keep you aware.

What is the point of all that worrying anyway? What will be will be. We all know that! No amount of worrying will change the outcome of anything. Live in this moment right now, and let tomorrow take care of itself, tomorrow.

Okay, I’m sure you get the point, and I hope you manage to find a way to practice this. Even if it’s only for 5 minutes a day. You can slowly extend your meditation time as it becomes easier for you.

The best time to meditate is early in the morning when it’s most peaceful and your mind is still in a more restful state.

As meditation becomes a part of your routine. You’ll begin to notice how much more productive you’ve become throughout the day. People in your life will notice the changes in you and will gravitate more towards you as your frequency rises.

When you feel the benefits and can see the results. Meditation will become a valuable part of your new daily lifestyle.

So, enough about meditation. Let’s move on.

Affirmations

The next very important thing you could do if you want to reprogram your subconscious into living the life that you deserve, is to find a mantra, or affirmation.

This should be played in the background as often throughout the day as you can manage while concentrating on your daily tasks. The affirmation shouldn’t be something that you’re aware of during the day. It will be picked up by your subconscious. More importantly, play this at night through headphones when falling asleep.

Positive affirmations will change the belief system of your subconscious mind by completely changing your program.

Good mantras I think are I AM affirmations. I am worthy, I am abundant, I am a loving, caring person. I am the perfect partner for my perfect partner. I am amazing. I am a magnet for money etc.

You can completely change your program. Instead of your subconscious working with it’s limitations, and believing that there will always be only a certain amount of money you can earn, only a certain amount of warmth, love and caring you can receive. From believing that you aren’t worthy, that you aren’t enough. Basically the belief set that you can’t have all the things other people are enjoying. You can now create a new program with unlimited abundance.

These positive affirmations go straight to the subconscious and begin to reset the program.

Play them as often as is possible while focusing on other things throughout the day, but more importantly, play them as you fall asleep at night. This is the best time, because as you fall asleep your brain goes into theta state.

Gratefulness and giving thanks is also very important, as it’s making a statement to the subconscious that you’ve already received these things. It also encourages you to realise the positive things you already have in your life. Take a few minutes each day to think about, appreciate and be thankful for the good things and the good people you already have in your life. It will help with lifting your spirits (vibration).

While listening to your affirmations in bed at night. Picture in your mind already living the lifestyle that you desire. Really imagine what it feels like to have that home, that car, that relationship. The more you practice this, the easier it will become. Feel how it feels to sit in that house, to drive the car, to feel the love. Make it as real as possible in your mind so that your subconscious begins to believe that it’s already a reality.

Your subconscious does not know the difference between reality and a dream. This is fact. Have you ever woken from a nightmare shaking with fear? How real did that bad dream feel? Imprint on your subconscious that you live in that house. See it. Map it out. The lounge, each bedroom, the kitchen etc. See how they look and feel yourself there. Make it as real as you possibly can. The same for a car, and the same for a loving relationship. Imagine receiving love from that person, and giving all of your love to them. Make it real and you’ll make it happen.

To help you understand this better, think about people who have been hypnotised. They do all sorts of crazy stuff believing it to be reality. Their eyes actually see a spider on their arm if they’ve been hypnotised to believe this. There have even been reports of a hypnotist telling someone as he walked towards her that his finger was red hot, and when he touched her arm with his finger, a blister appeared where he touched her.

This is the power of the subconscious mind. Tell it what you want to be your reality and it will work to ensure it is so. It’s designed to do so.

The more vivid the picture, the more feeling you put into it, the quicker it will manifest into your life.

Practice feeling what it is like to already have that lifestyle. It may sound a bit weird and difficult to do, but what you feel as well as think and picture simultaneously, will have the best impact.

This next point is very important.

Do not worry yourself about how the end result is going to come about. Don’t start fretting about how you’re going to come by all the wealth, or meet the love of your life. Your ego (subconscious program) may stop you from manifesting your ideal reality if you allow it to start talking you out of it, and it will try to talk you out of it! Each time you catch yourself telling yourself that this is nonsense, this won’t happen, or any negative thought, be aware. This is your subconscious trying to get you back in the program. Snap out of that thought straight away, smile as widely as you can and laugh at yourself. Remind yourself that YOU are in control of your thoughts and you choose to think positive and uplifting thoughts.

Seriously, it’s not for you to worry about how the end result will come. It’s your subconscious mind’s job to figure out a way for you to come by this. Your subconscious is there to serve you. It only follows the program that has been set, so set the program to be abundant in which ever area you desire and let your subconscious do it’s job.

Allow it to do this for you. All you need to do is keep focusing on the end result. You’ll probably find as the weeks go by and your mindset is changing, that you start coming up with ideas that you hadn’t even thought of before. This is your subconscious giving you opportunities to get to where you want to be.

Depending on your current vibrational frequency, changes will begin to show in your life within only a few short days or over a month or two. The fastest way to see changes is by firmly believing. I mean really believing that it’s your birth right to deserve and attract abundance. Abundance in any form. Be it money, love or happiness or good health. Or all! Positive affirmations will help with this and will raise your vibration. This is why it’s important to play these as often as possible. Soon your subconscious will adopt the new way of thinking and cast off the old beliefs, seeing that they no longer serve you and it will adopt the new belief system.

I stress the importance of believing as this is necessary in order to convert the mindset. We can all imagine, we can dream and we can visualise a better life, but we mustn’t underestimate the power of the subconscious. Firmly placing mental images into the subconscious and backing up these images with emotion, feeling how it feels to have these things will make the subconscious believe them to be real.

To truly believe that it’s your birth right to receive abundance in all forms from the Universe, the subconscious has no choice but to spend all of it’s energy in finding ways of making this happen.

There is no disputing this. It is fact!

Affirmations will help to raise your vibration. The more you repeat the affirmations the happier you will begin to feel.

If you don’t feel comfortable or confident recording your own affirmations, you can find plenty on YouTube to use. But please do use them.

Affirmations are a powerful way of reprogramming the subconscious.

Negative people

Another important step towards changing your life and creating the life you deserve is to take stock of the people you surround yourself with. This can be a difficult process, as it can include close family members and life long friends. However, if there are people in your life with a negative mindset, and by this I mean who are consistently negative, not those who are just going through a tough time, when generally they’re pretty upbeat. You have to seriously think about cutting these negative, energy thieves from your life.

These people suck your positivity. You’ll be able to pick out the culprits in your life. The gossips, those who are always talking about negative stuff, the back stabbers, those who love the drama on the news, watch the soaps on TV. These people resonate at a low vibration. You don’t want to be around these people. If they’re close to you then, yeah I know, you can’t cut them out completely. But you can limit the time you spend in their company. Trust me on this. The less time you spend with them, the higher you’ll resonate.

Try to find uplifting people to be around. People who are more like minded. Who want to improve their life and will support you, and who you can support in return. These people you’ll recognise because they give off a “good vibe”. They’re energetic and positive. Rarely speak badly of others and enjoy learning new things. Make these people your people.

Remember Like attracts Like and this is the way of the Universe!

Be the person who you want to be. Associate more with the type of people who will support you in this. Practice meditating, listen to affirmations. You have an infinite amount of power inside you that’s been there since birth. Start realising that power!

Try to limit your time on technology.

Meditate.

Feel and believe that you already have the thing you desire.

Be thankful.

Be more mindful.

Listen to positive affirmations.

Limit being around negative people.

Believe in yourself! and remind yourself every day that you have immense inner power, capable of transforming your beliefs, your health and your world from the ordinary to the extraordinary. There is nothing that you cannot do.

I hope you find benefit in this reading and go on to have a very prosperous and happy life.

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Tenerifé through my eyes.

I moved to Tenerifé in 1999 with my two youngest sons and my partner. I had never set foot on the island before, so it really was a huge step to make. We had friends who already lived there and had been heckling us to make the move for some time.

As it was becoming more and more difficult to make a living here on this small island, we decided to go for it.

What’s the worst that could happen, right?

We moved into a duplex on Amarilla golf. A golf course by the sea, and not too far from the South airport, Reina Sofía. My partner found work quickly and the kids spent their days playing around the pool and the golf course. We didn’t have a lot of money to spare, but life was definitely looking up.

After 4 months and at the end of Summer and the school holidays, we moved again to a Spanish village, Las Rosas. The boys went to the small, village school where they were taught to speak Spanish and I could go and find work. The public transport system is really good, so it was no problem for me and I soon found a job as a waitress. Our life was set.

Ready for school.

The boys made friends quickly. The island is multi cultural, with people from many countries, so it was great for the kids to integrate and also not feel like the only foreigners in town.

I also began making friends and soon I felt at home. Life was easy. On days off from work we would go down to the seaside town Las Galletas, just a few minutes walk down the road from the village where we lived.

We would snorkel in the rock pools when the tide was out, and see the most beautiful, colourful fish in shoals as they came right up to our face peering at us before turning tail and dashing off, quick as a flash.

We ate ice cream from the local bars and the boys would have turns on little Go Karts being rented out.

We’d also go on adventures around the island in our rented car. We rented it by the month at a pretty decent price.

We ventured up the mountainous, winding road, through pine forests and spectacular scenery to Mount Teide, the local volcano. It really is an amazing trip, and the views all around really are spectacular. On a clear day, you can see all the other Canary islands.

We sometimes came down again by a different route, never really knowing where we would end up. On these days, we visited Puerto De La Cruz, a coastal town in the north west, and a popular town with tourists. A beautiful town with some great colonial architecture, a stunning Lido for swimming, beaches and a really peaceful tree lined town square where you can enjoy a café in the shade while people watching, and enjoying watching children as they play in the little play park. All the while small, green parrots flit from palm tree to palm tree above your head.

I do like Puerto De La Cruz. It’s also home of Loro Park https://www.loroparque.com/index.php/en/ which is definitely a great family day out not to be missed if visiting the island.

One day after visiting the volcano, we found our way to Icod De Los Vinos. Another north westerly town and apparently home to the oldest tree in the world. The tree is of the type drago trees, or dragon trees.

I encouraged my youngest son to eat broccoli by telling him it was baby drago trees, and strangely it worked. He grew up loving broccoli.

It was an interesting day and the only time I’ve visited. I remember a street with caves, and local people in traditional dress, encouraging us into each cave to taste home made licquores and cheeses.

On another day we found our way to Orotava. A town high up the mountain, and as luck would have it, on the day of an annual festival where street artists made enormous, colourful and amazingly good images of biblical paintings with coloured sand.

There’s so much to see on the island, and so much more to still explore. I just can’t wait to get back there with a driver’s license and my camera.

Life was as it should be. A mixture of working to earn a living, school life for the boys and maintaining stability at home

As the years passed though, my partner sadly became more and more fond of the cheap Spanish vino, and to cut a long story short, it became too dangerous to continue living with him. For my own sanity and preservation, and of course for the safety and sanity of my sons….

The boys and I came back to Scotland.

Trying to upgrade.

I finished work at 8pm this evening, looking forward to coming home and upgrading from Blog to website.

Oh, if only life were that straightforward. Sigh.

It’s now 22.39pm and I’m no further forward. this web building malarky’s going to take a bit of investigation!

I know I can find a coupon code before I commit to pay, but none of them work. Of course we all know what will happen if I go ahead and pay without the code. Yeah, as soon as I hit pay, a new code will become available. Am I being tight? Probably. But I don’t earn megabucks and need to save a few bob where I can.

(Any advice on this would be greatly appreciated)

I’m planning on going Premium as I want to add videos to my page at some point.

I’ve given up for the night though, and so, I’ll just write a little instead. Afterall, this is the point of it all.

So, a bit more about me perhaps.

I currently work on the social media team for a well known European airline. On Facebook and Twitter. It can be fun, and it can also be a total nightmare. It’s certainly diverse.

I also take staff travel calls. This involves airline staff and their families and friends calling in to make changes to current bookings. Changing their flights and adding hold bags mainly.

The stories I could tell! But not tonight. maybe after I’ve moved away and am at a safe distance!

I’ve recently completed a training course, which now sees me as a subject matter expert in persons with reduced mobility. For the purpose of special assistance at airports you understand.

Mainly, I enjoy my work, but still I feel unsettled here. I have to leave.

I hope I’m not boring you.

In my personal life, I have 3 grown up sons who I love very much obviously, but they all have their own lives now and I must get on with mine.

I’ve travelled extensively and loved every minute of it.

I’ve backpacked around China, Peru, New Zealand, Indonesia and Cambodia. I’ve lay on stunning beaches in Thailand and Sardinia, and been stoned in the street in Marrakesh.

(Stoned, as in I’ve had big stones thrown at me by a child who put his hand out for money after I’d given the rest of my currency to all the beggars in the streets and had no more to give. Not stoned on weed!)

I’ve walked the streets of Venice many times, and found my way around New York, but I’m an island girl at heart. Cities are a curiosity for a short visit but I much prefer open spaces and being close to the sea.

Over time I’ll share my experiences of my trips with some words of wisdom and some photos.

The world is full of adventure and I’m restless to get back in amongst it.

The big day approacheth.

Hi all.

Well, I decided I’d start writing a blog as I have a life changing moment approaching in roughly 4 weeks time, and if the outcome of that is as I hope, another, probably even bigger life changing moment will follow soon after.

The first life changing experience will be passing my driving test. You have no idea just how ecstatic I’ll feel WHEN I pass! I’ve sat my test twice before, a good few years ago now and sadly failed. But, this time, this time I feel much more confident with who I am and I’m ready and determined to pass.

The second Life changing experience will be my big move back to Tenerifé in The canary islands. I need to pass my test before I move back. I’ve promised myself this and it’s a challenge I must win before the next big step. My life will be so much easier if I can drive, not to mention the opportunities that having a car will also bring. So, fingers crossed all goes well.

I’ve always felt more at home in Tenerifé than I do here in Scotland for some strange reason. I grew up here on this small island, but never really felt like I belonged. We moved here when I was very young from Edinburgh, so maybe that has something to do with it. I really don’t know, but strangely, in Tenerife I feel more at peace with myself, like I belong there. I lived there twice before for a number of years and now it’s time for me to go home.

This is just an introduction to my story as I start up this new site, so I’ll leave it here for tonight.

To be continued…..